What am I doing with my life?
LOL at the cliche title.
I can never seem to wake up for class anymore and the worse part is it's my willpower that's failing me half the time! It's like I can really see the purpose in attending my chemistry classes or whatever. Like I dunno, I feel like I've given up. Like I wanna say, what am I doing with myself?? And the thing is... I don't know. I don't even know why I'm here anymore. BS Psychology's a pre med course and I honestly don't mind cause I LOVE PSYCHOLOGY but I hate Chemistry so much. I don't know anything. My grade is currently 30.64 of 100 and I'm not even trying anymore cause I know I'm going to drop it anyway... Haay. :<
I really do want art as a career so so badly
but everyone always says "do it on the side" and of course I understand where they're coming from but right now I really don't see what else I want to do
... I know it sound so so dramatic but art really is my passion. I mean that word, passion, actually makes sense in that context. It's the only thing I really want to slave over, lose sleep over and essentially bleed my hands to death over.
So my plan of action...
...really and truly sounds funny when i say it but I'm serious.
I want to succeed in the art world before I graduate. I wanna show my parents that it's possible to do. I want to do this before I graduate because it would kill me if I got stuck doing a job that I'm just being forced to or whatever. First world problems, third world country. :I
I just need enough to get by. Okay. I wont feel so horrible if I fail chemistry, right?
OH GOSH ANISIA. What are you even freaking out over again??
Just come what may I guess. I should try NOT to over cut my subjects though... But otherwise. You can do this!! Academic probation. You wouldn't feel bad about that. Shift to AB Psych. Yea sure. At least you're still in the university with the people you love right!? :
D Now why the hell are you talking yourself? GET OF THIS JOURNAL NOW.